Perfection is hard work. Surrendering can be scary but in the end it's much more pleasant!

This is an idea I've had to grow into over some time....especially after having a baby and starting a business. I'm being challenged even more now that my gorgeous son is really embracing his two-ness!!

I think everyone will know what I'm talking about, even those of us without children or with bubs under two - we've all been in the supermarket witnessing the absolute meltdown of mother & child, the horror on mums face, disbelief that this is really happening to her & child flailing around like a fish out of water, disgusted at the injustice of the world. Sounds being unleashed from deep in their little body......

When this scene happened to me I was lost....lost at sea! Standing in David Jones like a stunned mullet, REALLY not knowing what to do. This was the first time that I thought seriously about parenting skills or rather a lack of them. Previous to this everything had been instinctive & this was certainly not part of the perfect plan....

I have been, in the past, seriously attached to the idea of having things go a certain way, and even though i thought this was working, pre child & pre LifePod, I now see that it was only ever causing me stress, stress, stress - and compounding a bad habit!
I found myself getting so worked up over the littlest things, if the house wasn't just so or if something didn't meet my expectation, I'd feel the adrenaline beginning to rise and the panic setting in. The need to fix it immediately would be overwhelming or worse the need to blame.

It's been such a relief just to give myself permission to 'let go', and to finally understand that it's my perception of perfection that needs to shift. The house can be perfectly messy, the dishes can be perfectly unclean, my son can perfectly splash water everywhere in the bath & clothes on the bathroom floor is really not the end of the world!
I'm talking about very surface stuff but often times this is what sets so many of us off.....the little things.

I'm being taught each day to stay in the present, not only by my yoga & meditation practises but in my relationships, especially with my son. Children live in the present, they are consumed by each moment so beautifully. So I'm learning, thank you Phoenix.

My real understanding in all this is just to allow myself to be. And be okay with what I feel, rather than resist and fight - surrender!!

Lauren